JEEZ!!! I haven't written in a while. Holy cow!!! How did I go this long without writing? I feel horrid for it. Things have been so hectic with the birth of our youngest and now we are getting ready for Rob to be in and out of the field for about a month and a half. :( We just got back from leave which totally went by WAY too fast.

I thought going home would be horrible for me because I would just want to stay and I would not come home. Now, don't get me wrong, I thought about staying multiple times, but for once, I knew that I truly belonged in El Paso (for the time being). I struggle big time with friends and trying to find where I truly belong. In elementary and high school, I was never popular and always was shot down. I got burned soo many times by people I thought were my friends. Awesome memories.

Yet, this is different, for once, I am excited to get back to life here and pick up where I left off. Robert and I have found a really great couple that we are good friends with, really close friends of ours just got stationed here (super excited) and I am FRG leader. I am finally finding my knack in this place and El Paso is not as bad as it was 9 months ago. Funny how that really works. You hate a place until you find your nitch. I am still trying to find mine and I am slowly finding mine, but it makes this Army life easier on me.

I can't wait to PCS again and this time, I will handle it WAY better. I mean the whole Army Wife/life can either make you or break you. The way you handle PCS, field time, deployments, training will determine how your life and how much you actually enjoy this. I mean instead of dreading PCSing (like I did), look at it as an adventure. Deployment is easier if you don't say good bye- but see ya later. If you realize that he may be far away but never gone. I am so excited now that I got this new perspective on this crazy/hectic life :)