Blessed

It's quite depressing here at Bliss hearing about all the husbands deployed or getting their deployment orders. This is our first deployment and I don't know what to expect. It's quite frightening to think that come December, I will lose my best friend for 9 months-to a year. He will be able to come home halfway through the deployment for two weeks of R&R, but I have a feeling that those two weeks aren't going to long enough. I have a feeling that saying goodbye all over again at R&R will be harder then saying it in the first place. We are trying to work it out that he will do most of his time over there and then when he comes back, he only has a couple more months to go.

I still have till December to prepare and I am so blessed that God gave me this time Especially since we are expecting our second in May. I don't know what I would do without my husband in the delivery room. Robert has always been the rock in this marriage. He keeps me calm and relaxed when I start getting overwhelmed and stressed out. He is always there to keep me focused on the goal and focused on what needs to be done. God has blessed us in ways that I can not begin to thank Him. I know that it would kill Robert not to be here for the birth of our son. I mean we could skype during the birth, but he wouldn't be able to hold him, and spend time with him. I thank God every night that Robert was given more time.

So, I have a little over 11 months to prepare for this deployment. I feel somewhat better knowing that he won't be in any combat since his job requires him to monitor computer screens and being the communications guy for an Air Defense Unit. I am relieved to know that he isn't even going to be in the Middle East at all, he will be deploying to some small country in Asia. Again, God has blessed us with sending my husband to a non-combat zone.

I can sit here and mope around about him leaving or I can choose to look at what God has done that will make this deployment easier for me to bear. I mean I will still have two kids that I have to raise on my own, take over the finances, and I will have to be the rock for my children. Of course I won't have Robert, but I have my faith and I have friends who also are losing their hubbies along with mine, or right before mine. I have my family back in VA and I have a sister who has already done two deployments. The saying is true that God will not give you more then you can handle. He is giving me a chance to prove how strong I am to myself and to others. He is giving me a chance to really know how it is like being an Army wife and He does all this knowing I have an amazing support system. I am amazed that He thinks that I am strong enough for this. I wonder how I will do without Robert with a toddler and a newborn. At Basic and AIT, I had a baby, but now I have a baby and a toddler. But if my God is for me, who can be can be against me? Hooah!!