He has so many great songs that I could talk all day about them, but today I want to address two of them. One of them I have been obsessed with and listening to constantly. I think I can make it through the whole song without crying from how powerful it is and how much it hits home. It's called The Military Wife. I first heard this song and bawled my eyes out. It perfectly describes what we go through when they are gone. I know that I have no idea what it feels like to have a deployed hubby, but I know that I will soon enough. My time is coming and I know for a fact that I can get through this with his music. When I am down and depressed, music is where I turn to. I turn to it for my motivation to keep going and this song puts it in perfect perspective. We will talk about this song later.
The reason I was in tears today was because he has a song out called Where's My Daddy At. I played it on the radio to listen to it (yes, I had tears in my eyes by the end). What really pushed the edge was Bobby. He was in the back and he would complain every time the song would go off. He would stop automatically as soon as the song came back on and I busted out in tears. We have now made that his and daddy's song. He is really starting to show how proud he is. He was in his room the other day for 15 mins until I checked on him. He was sitting on his bed with his Camo bear that was dressed up in ACUs that we bought from Build A Bear. My heart just melted. He was just laying there cuddling with it. He carries his camo blanket around every where and he loves his Army t-shirt(also loves his Dallas Jersey). He stands at the door every morning and cries for daddy when Robert leaves.
He is my source of inspiration. He gives me the strength to go on. I need to be strong for him and for my soldier. I need to keep the family together and it's my responsibility to make sure that Bobby knows how much his daddy loves him. It's my job to keep Robert near Bobby at all times. When Robert comes home, Bobby is the first to greet him and he loves sitting with his daddy to watch movies. He is a little Robert. I hated that we named him Robert because I couldn't stand having him called Bobby (I am okay with it now, since it fits his personality PERFECTLY). I am now seeing no other name would be suitable for him. He is a miniature image of his daddy. He brought me his Dallas jersey so he could wear it and he soaks up any time with Daddy.
Bobby is almost 2 years old, yet he is beginning to see that Daddy is gone a lot and he realizes that he needs to spend time with him. Robert is the same way. He is preparing for this deployment both with the Army and himself. He has all the training and will be prepared to do his job, but he isn't prepared to leave his wife and two sons. He will miss so much of Jayden's life and it kills him. I watch him with Bobby and he is an amazing father. It's depressing to see him with Bobby knowing that he will be gone.
Robert, Bobby and Jayden are my strength. They are my rocks. Robert is being strong for us and we are being strong for Robert. He honestly needs it more then me. Robert is specially my source of inspiration. He fights two battles every day. He fights for his country and for his family. Military marriage is hard. I have had times that I have bawled my eyes out just wanting to go home. I have had lonely nights and there are days that I want to just give up. He sees how hard it is on me and how hard it is for him, but we are in this together. He fights and I support him. I am here for him no matter what and I will forever be. He is my best friend and the love of my life. We have to fight twice as hard for our marriage, but we are Army Strong and we can do it. As long as we keep each other motivated and inspired, we will survive.
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